date: 2.20.2011
time: 10:05 PM
if you wanted me to be in your life, you would have put me there and appreciate the things that i had ever done for you. i shouldn't had to fight so hard for a spot back then. there and then you made the decision to leave, so why come back now. i just don't feel appreciated at all. i fought so much for you, been like a crazy dog following you around, been humiliated by others and yet i still stood there trying to be there for you. but you told me you don't need it and left. went completely out of my life. and now, you decided to come back to me? why? because i have grown prettier than last time? i refuse you, you said i don't appreciate you. who didn't appreciate who? have you ever thought about my feelings? what am i to you? a fucking piece of toy? when you had the toy to play with, you didn't want and dumped it. now you missed the toy and decided to find it back. What the fuck is wrong with you all. you all made the decisions to leave, left me stranded there and now decided that i would just accept you back. bullshit. my facebook pictures doesn't mean anything. they were edited and once you see me without makeup, you will just dump me again. i don't know why i have to always deal with these drama. been fooled once twice thrice. i can go bang the wall and die if i am going to be fooled the fourth time. i feel like shit. i am just a piece of shit to you. just a fucking disposable toy. do i actually meant anything to anyone.
you, you, you and daddy are the worst examples of mankind. of any males.
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