barely. just barely before school ended, I managed to submit my magazine and photography assignment which I've been dragging it for one week already. Special thanks to Donna & Robin for helping me finish pasting and perfecting my magazine. Special thanks to Ying Quan & Kevin for being both my female and male models and to Donna for being like my assistant photographer giving me ideas for the shoot. Just when I felt slightly more relieved to have at least handed in my assignments before the day ended, I screwed up two pages of my magazine while pasting. So much for trying to do at least a perfect neat magazine. I was too tired to feel upset about myself. Two most basic things a human can do: cutting and pasting. And I can screw them up real bad. Am I even human?
Much as I want to feel relieved, there's five other assignments going on. I have doubts about myself already, if I can really cope with all of them or not. I'll try sketching some designs first before I head to bed since tonight's going to be the night which I can get more sleep than usual and I should make the best out of it.
So much money has been spend on art, probably even more expensive than I spend on makeup. Looks like my life is all about living in high expenses. I wonder how I'm going to support my mum, let alone myself in future. I need to earn tons.of.money.
"i hope you can actually be yourself in front of me. i will always welcome you with open arms because i love you enough to know that you're worthy for me to do that. you will get hurt, i will get hurt. we will all hurt and be hurt. right now, i only wish that you do not push me away but let me in. i don't blame you for anything in the past because i am instead thankful that you have shared a wonderful relationship with me and let me felt what love might be."