date: 5.31.2011
time: 12:39 AM
I'm not perfect, I'm not your goddess. I'm flattered if you ever thought so but please, don't expect so much from me. i don't want to disappoint people and disappoint myself. when i do, i will get upset about it, hate myself for everything and bring about any pain to myself. i will lose my confidence and it doesn't help that already my very own flesh and blood related person brings me down every time, i really don't need yours. Yes, i tried to change for the better every time, who doesn't? However no matter how much i try, i cannot be completely perfect. i can't turn time back for you, i can't make miracles work. My personality maybe what you think of as good but it maybe you don't know other sides of me as well. I'm not everyone's lovable angel. And i don't want to be either because all you'd do is expect me to make exceptions all the time, think i would forgive and forget everything. most things can be forgiven but some cannot be forgotten. So please, don't expect so much from me. I'm tired of this burden on my shoulders. The last thing i want is to become a heartless bitch to my other love ones.
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