I don't regret my past entirely.

I only regret the time I have wasted being with the wrong people.

Neglected my work, neglected the love ones who genuinely cared for me,

all because I put the one I was in love with as my first priority.

Love is blind, indeed I was too blind to see.

Ironically, despite my love for them was genuine and

what they described as beautiful,

it was never able to beat the betrayal their ex(s) gave to them

even if I was longer with them than their ex(s) and

really love them for who they were.

They still think about their ex when I was with them

because of their ex, their love with me wavered.

Was there even love?

I was faded off ever so quickly like I never existed.

You talk to your friends about the betrayals you had,

but what about the betrayal you gave to me?

But some said

thanks to them, I have learnt it the hard way.

thanks to them, I will grow stronger.

However,

have I?

will I?

All I see is the trusts being demolished.

I don't know where to place the trusts,

because theres many out there wearing masks.

Probably including myself one day.

I look back. Whether that someone said was true or not, back then I was indeed to afraid to hurt you in any ways. Too afraid to make you broken than you already were. I wanted to be the glue to mend you back, to show you how wonderful love can be because I really love you. I wanted to share your problems with you. Wanted to be the person you can count on. I never wanted to fight for someone so much before and maybe I might fight more for someone else in future, but the fact remained that I did it, for you. And you're the first. Every time there was a confrontation with you, I cried and couldn't sleep. But inside, you couldn't forget her. And you chose me so that you could forget her, isn't it. You might have love me at some point of time, but I've lost the battle. I was just, a passerby in your life. Not worthy to be part of your life..