date: 7.26.2011
time: 1:15 AM
LOL. I almost forgotten it's the 26th till I saw a friend's early post on facebook. What had happened the last few days', really got me off the time track. But within an hour, thanks for the beautiful messages, it made my day ahead. A few particular smses I received was real touching, and I didn't know what to reply back actually.
"Happy Happy Happy Birthday Bernieeee!!!! Though we aren't hanging out much nowadays, I'm here to send you a message at least (: hope you'll like it.. Well here goes, the Bernie I know, she is a very strong girl who is really passionate about what she believes in. The Bernie I know is like a mother to her friends whether they're guys or girls. She's a really responsible person though she may feel a bit lazy at times? Hahahah! Nah kiddin'. This friend of mine used to have a low-esteem due to her looks, and surprisingly she had no idea how she actually look without make-ups but I'm really glad she's more confident of herself now. Although I can't seem to hangout with her nowadays nor contact due to our tight schedules, I hone for the times I used to have with her and her friends. Well what can I say? I honestly miss you. Wishing you all the best in life babe! No matter what happens, happens! You're more matured now to handle that yourself. You're finally legal? Wow! Time sure flies! Well, I hope you enjoy this day and sorry if I can't celebrate with you as I'm cramped up with projects and all. Oh the looks part I forgot to say. You're honestly cute :D Don't take it as I'm flirting or anything but I just think it really is. ^^ Have a blast!"
"Dear Bernie Barney Bones!! Happy Birthday to you! All the best in studies and whatever knots you're facing in life. Baby girl, I've known you for quite a while now and I'm quite surprised at myself for saying this too. In a short period of time, I'm able to trust you, and I feel at ease to confide anything to you. I'm glad I met you. At first sight, you do seem fierce and rather hard to approach type, but once we talked, I think you're really friendly. Once I knew you more, I think your fierce look is beautiful, and your look is a signature of you. Especially those eyes. Having heavy makeup on your eyes so what?! At least you're able to make your eyes very mesmerizing. Honest truth, I was captured by your eyes at first hahahaha! :D Even if you had no coloured lens, no makeup (which you're seriously cute), you are still you. You're still the Bernie I could confide to. Don't you ever go for any plastic surgery EVER. I know at times you feel tired at all the crap, and you had those thoughts, but the you right now is purely original. (You love makeup? Just wear lah! Heck care! LOL) When people are close to you, they will see. But remember, you can't always be getting along with every single one. Some are bound to hate, some will be jealous, some just don't get along with you. Don't change yourself to suit them, just let them be. Hey! It's better to know you have a few true friends, than a hundred of fake friends right? And doll, stop hurting yourself. Love yourself, because you're truly amazing. Meet up soon! I love you, muacks! hehe :D"
Am I really like that? I can never see it in me, lol. Well on one hand, I still have things unsettled. Though I cried, I'm happy I told the truth finally. I'm happy I've decided to go with the flow. To others it seems like hurt, but for me, it hurts even more to keep trying to stop these emotions. Either way, I should enjoy this day and not let my love ones down, for they would want to see me happy in this way.
Happy Birthday to me! c: any kind souls able to get a cake like that for me? Ok, that looks pretty much like a wedding cake, but who cares. It's still a cake. Only that it looks rather inedible.
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