kill me with a straw please
date: 8.30.2011
time: 10:58 PM
So it's true that I no longer feel close with you anymore. I don't know since when that things gotten like it was never meant to be. It reached a point whereby we are no longer being honest with each other. It wasn't like that in the beginning. Perhaps for someone like me, I really asked too much. I cared too much, I wanted to know what's going on everytime. It got to a stage which you're just telling me for the sake of telling me, a sign that I'm just being a burden by asking about your life. You're just telling me so that I could, to put it in harsh words, fuck off. To give me an answer just so that to satisfy me. To top if off with extra whipped cream, you are fabricating lies because you never intended to tell me the truth. Somebody whom I don't talk to for so long, randomly comes to tell me that you are finding me annoying by asking so much. Really? I don't want to believe, but why would she out of all people start talking to me when she knows nothing of us to begin with. Another thing I don't understand was, why her out of all people? She gave me challenge, a challenge to test that what she said was true. Honest enough, I can see the results. Tell me, when did things become this way? Didn't you always wanted someone to care for you? Here you have one, and it's genuine care but you find it irritating. lol.
When I care and ask, people say I asked too much. When I don't care and keep quiet, people say I neglected them. It's totally amazing, I tell you. But it's okay. Don't think that I'm hating you. I will stop caring, if that's what I can do however, please don't regret this decision alright? I have met enough people who never appreciates and then regret, and I will probably meet more of such people but if you will, do help me to lessen the load for the time being. (And oh, if what she said was not the truth and you're just probably busy whatsoever, I should see you trying to explain things to me because you would know that I'm referring to you. Don't start telling me little reasons after some time.) All your funny tactics, I'm going a bit crazy ah.
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