Tug-of-Heart
date: 10.10.2011
time: 1:29 AM
 After reading a friend's blog, I realised that she wrote exactly what I was feeling before a month ago, and quite honestly, the feelings of back then lingers around every now and then.
Everytime you bring yourself down, I will do what I can to pull you back up. You say that you're worthless, and I tell you every worth you are. You say that you're imperfect, which is true because who can be perfect and still be real?, and I tell you how perfect you are - formed by the imperfections you had. I've seen them, and I know them. It's not hard to understand you. You say how you're a toy to everyone, but you're never a toy to me. You say that nobody loves you, but I do love you. Even as a friend, I love you. I'm not saying these to please you, I'm saying these from how I feel. When I say that you're beautiful, it's really how you are to me.
What you won't understand is how I feel when you say all these thoughts. If you understand what I'm doing, you'd know that I want to pull you back on track, to try and at least stop a little of these horrible thoughts because I'm afraid of you slipping into depression. Although I don't see you often, I can feel you being like a walking corpse and I don't want that to happen. I'm fully aware that I'm don't have the most positive minset around, let alone on myself, so what rights do I have to speak of you? The only answer I have for you is that, for the people I care and love, it's what I do. I won't let go of this 'rubber band' until they do. When they do, it hurts. At least I'm not the one to let go first and let it hurt them instead. And you are no exception.
To be honest, I still have much more of myself to give. But if I do, will anything change? Or is it that fate has decided that since I can't pull you back, someone else will?
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