"Keep calm and smile because life moves the fuck on."
date: 10.24.2011
time: 11:07 AM
A string of mixed emotions, that I don't really know what I'm feeling right now, at this moment. Everything is jumbled up and in a total mess. Earlier in the night, Keegan had been sleeping weird again, plus her abnormal breathing sounds which got me very worried. I was trying to keep an eye on her every hour at least. While working through the night, perhaps due to laggy files, my macbook totally shut off on me for 2 straight hours. Earlier in the morning, I was searching high and low for my thumbdrive. Didn't want to waste more time, I turned to my harddisk, but the macbook couldn't read it. What could be more than worse than it is already? Not after I found out that douchebag in the house borrowed my thumbdrive without telling me, and spoiled my harddisk as well. I want to feel pissed off. I think I have the rights to be pissed off. My backups are gone. I will have to re-backup after I get a new harddisk because my thumbdrive obviously can't store that as much as my harddisk would. But, I'm mentally tired. Each time I try to defend myself, I feel like I waste more energy than in a marathon run. Yet on the other hand, there are things that makes me happy. Just thinking about them is enough to make me smile.
"I miss the days when tying my shoes were the hardest thing to do. Now, it's learning to smile, not being defeated by whatever gets you down."I will just look forward to the day he dies.
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