It's about a year now
date: 11.06.2011
time: 1:28 AM
 3 months back, the words hurt so much. But the pain you put me through in that period of time actually made me able to let go this time. The things you told me, the things I told you, was my last pillar that I could lean on to. Each time, I build a pillar to be able to support the things you say. Each time, one after another, they fall. Until the very last pillar, I thought I would build more. But I'm sorry, it was the last, the very last that I could take. I went crashing down the month after that, but in the end, crashing down wasn't as bad as I thought. I manage to get out of it. Now I can take a deep breath, and cry, but they're tears of joy. I finally made it through! :) I finally felt that sort of huge relief after tough emotional times.
It is indeed the first relationship that had such a huge impact on me, no doubt about that. But it's okay, there's a first for everything. Even though getting out of it was tough (maybe I just take much longer time than other people) but I would still choose to love again.
Maybe we would cross each other's paths again many years down into future like you once said so, and perhaps maybe not - that our paths ends here. No one knows what fate has been in mind for us. But for now, sincerely, thank you for the pain you had put me through. You aren't the first and you won't be the last but in some ways you let me know that even when everything in my life wasn't alright, I can still pull it through. And as always, I wish you all the best in life.
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