date: 4.05.2012
time: 2:21 AM
I have to be okay in a couple of a few hours. What's more worse is expecting me to accept new things already. And I mean new things in every aspect possible. Why? Because I will be fine. Yes, I will definitely be fine but it does not mean I don't take time to get back up on my feet. Doesn't mean a person is fine therefore she has to take on new things immediately. What you don't understand is that I'm the person for myself. I choose to accept them or not. I choose what to accept and when to accept. You don't force your believes on me just because you believe them. You give me opinions and suggestions but not force it upon me that I must do what you think. Should I make any mistakes then so be it because I chose to do it and I won't even blame anyone for it.
Have some basic courtesy if you're trying to help me to get through what I am going through. You are not oblige to help me and neither did I asked for your help. What you are doing is just making this pain come back all over again. Leave me the way it is and the things I chose to do. Every decision I made is what I want and I know clearly what I am doing. I don't make impulsive decisions regarding my life, perhaps in the past but that's in the past and people learn from them. You are not the only one growing up, I am as well. (unless you talk about shopping then that's a different thing altogether.) You don't understand me and my ways, that's fine. You don't have to, at all.
the last thing I ever need in my life is people who don't even make a difference in my life think they can control me and the things I do. #fuckthat
i believed that people can fall in love regardless of gender.
but do i force it upon you when you don't?
Perhaps what I do seems wrong to you but that doesn't mean that what you think is right either.
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