date: 6.11.2012
time: 11:40 PM
So much love and worries for this beautiful white creature. So much.
Be sending her off to a boarding house for pets this Thursday, for I'll be going away on Friday. She trembles every now and then. I'm afraid, what if she goes when I'm away? When I'm not around? Because if she's gonna leave, I want to be by her side. Should I just drop the vacation and stay behind to look after them? Le sigh. You are such a beautiful being. So loyal. I wish I could do so much more for you, little one. It kills me to see you like that. When you really do go, whatever will I do?
Firstly telling me "anything, up to you." Then constantly being reminded of "make sure there's surprises okay. I like surprises. I don't want to know what's going on." Then remind me afterwards about what I should have for the plans. So what kind of surprise will this be then if you know what you want to do? If I do leave someone to plan something for me, I'd trust them enough to let them do whatever. Not constantly reminding/telling them what should be done - because if so, then I might as well do it on my own. #justsaying.
很心苦啊。
I wonder if anyone will even try to plan something for my day. Or even try to make time for it. I don't know what I want to do either way so it's okay and it's on such an odd date. Back to topic. If I want to truly help people, I should be helping without conditions, right? Mhm.
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