void
date: 6.25.2012
time: 5:30 AM
I don't even dare to sleep.
The heartbreaking decision to put my little white beauty to sleep has been made.
Later at 0230pm.
I feel devastated. I know it's for the best, but why do I feel so cruel?
Had I really done all that I could? It never feels enough.
I know what it feels like to have death touch somebody I love, but what does it feels like to have literally chosen death for somebody and then watch silently as life slips away from them bit by bit?
Wanted Keegan to be comfortable in her last night and brought her home. Here I am, spending the last few hours with her, before my journey with her all these years - ends. What will it be like to have to get use to being without something that you've had for so long?
我哭了。
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