missing
date: 7.14.2012
time: 3:09 AM
For the first time, going out to search for a missing person is really no small task. Under the midnight blue sky, you try to sharpen those eyes of yours amongst the sea of moving people, not wanting to miss a face. Going to the places you think that person will go to, at the same time wondering that maybe he/she won't be there because they know you might go looking for them. However, you should still take the chance right?
I could only imagine the emotions of the one who's searching. The pain, worrying, endless thoughts - nature of a human being. I remembered, many years ago, a dear family member of mine left the house due to unimaginable pressures. She was always known to be calm, and well, calm for years. That one faithful day, she couldn't take it anymore. I was so young back then, I didn't know what to do. I just knew that something terrible had happened. It lasted for a week. During that week, things were chaotic. It became one of my worst nightmares too. Good thing she returned to the family, unharmed. She apologized and in my own little baby steps, I moved on as well. Moving on doesn't really mean forgetting everything entirely. I just don't dwell on it too much, acting as though the world is going to end. No. But I kind of figured out that I wasn't the same as before. My view on certain things and people had changed too. Last year in 2011, she did it again. But only for 2 days. This time, I'm much older and with the help of cellphones, things were easier. She did not reply nor pick up my calls at first and it sucks when I couldn't get out of the house to find her. The only thing that kept me going was that faith of hope. Thankfully, she contacted me the night after because she felt that at least I have the right to know her whereabouts.
Indeed, I kept some things from her that had been years old or recently, days ago. I have my own reasons for doing so. I still love her very much, perhaps even more and still holds that much respect for her. I could never blame her for behaving the way she did because I can't even understand what she must have felt. I just wished that she had married a better man for she really don't deserve the life that she's living right now, in my opinion.
I just hope that all will go well for this friend and his sister.
Mad tired but I can't seem to sleep. Seem to be waiting for any news. Shall watch Art of Valor - I don't know why for some reason, I love this film. Perhaps because of the unspeakable bravery.
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