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date: 8.19.2012
time: 3:07 AM
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Logged into Facebook, and apparently my profile will be publicly changed to timeline soon. I do not really fancy the timeline layout to be honest. Some getting used to. It was easier to access my past as compared to the old one which is mainly just endless scrolling till you get lazy. I prefer that. I went back to the year 2009, I sure have weird posts. Some I do not even understand what I was trying to say. Slowly, I read back everything. The times when I fell in love, I become silly - overly using smilies and other emoticons. That is what love makes me do. I fall completely head over heels. Reading those posts from a 3rd perspective, I could sense this girl's excitement. It feels like this lion had just turned into a pup. I miss this girl's excitement. The one when she was crazy. Crazily happy. Crazily in love. No words could fully describe the butterflies she felt. But they never really last, do they? You could only cherish those silly moments as much as you could while they happened.
On last year's Christmas, I remembered wishing to Santa that I hope the people who are important to me will stay with me for as long as possible. Before the half of this year even passed, half of these people had left. It's alright. At least I jotted down those good memories, worthy to be remembered. When I read them back now, tears soak the pages. It wasn't just sad tears, happy tears too. How I laughed at those funny moments. All in all, it makes me appreciate the every little details in life.
sometimes I did too much, sometimes I do too little.
when will I ever learn this balance between things?
This year's Christmas, what will I wish for?
Who else would have left by then?
Who else would step into my life and become important?
How will I look like then?
What will I have gone through?
Questions, questions, questions.
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