To ask or not to ask?

I have no idea.
I mean, what do you do if you have this thought in your head that you want to pass something to someone yet you have sensed that that someone doesn't want to see you?

I'll have to admit that perhaps I want to see them.
That perhaps I still care.
That perhaps I wish they feel a little happy upon receiving it.

 On the other hand, - I don't want to jeopardize the relationship further if there's even any left.
- that they might be forcing themselves to come and see me just because I had prepared for them.

Why do I always throw myself in such a spot?
I thought of or see something that I know someone likes, proceed to purchase them happily thinking that it might make them happy, forgetting the status of our relationship.
So why do I always buy without thinking?

Sigh.
Sometimes, I really forget where I stand in someone else's life.
I don't know how I can forget.
 
Surrounded by all these gifts I had, never having the chance to pass them to their owners.