Taking a short break. Let's get some of these thoughts out of my head.

It feels like I no longer know what I am doing.
Not sure if I even love what I am doing.
Wondering if La Salle accepting me was a wrong decision.

It's Thursday already, and I aren't sure if I could finish all these by Monday. Body hasn't been recovering properly because of the lack of sleep. But I tell myself everytime, "just a little bit more." I believed, I stressed my mum out much more now. She thinks that I'm gonna drop dead anytime soon, always asking if I'm alright. I feel like I am and I feel like I am not.

Too complicated, too much happenings, too much drama.

I rejected a few souls.. well, no, I'm not happy about it. I hate the whole feeling of it. Almost like I'm feeling guilty about not having the same feelings back. Or if I even have any feelings. Maybe at least for a while, I don't. Too caught up with other things. Another part of my life, I kind of indirectly ruin someone else's marriage and so if even I slept, it's never a good sleep because of all these nightmares.

I feel like a jinx. Maybe I am. Cursed with these, asdfghjklgans.

I can't wait till Monday is over, and holiday starts. Can't wait to start trying new things that I have in my head, can't wait to spend Christmas somewhere else this year. In fact, I can't wait to start settling issues with people since it's put on hold at the moment. I can't wait to get all these burden that are weighing me down, can't wait to feel free again.

Just a little bit more, endure.