Who am I to pretend that all is well, all is fine?

What's the point of tolerating them all? What's the point? What's the point?
One says to always question yourself before questioning others.
One says to always change yourself first before trying to change others.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
The biggest question that I have for myself is: Why do I have to deal with them?

Everytime, so far, bullshit(s) always comes back after when a relationship has ended.
What for, really? Especially when it's been quite some time already.
Can I have one decent relationship which when it all ends, things are left just the way it is?
Or rather, people accepting it the way it is? And I thought I was slow at accepting reality.

If I hurt your friend, then I had apologised, which is the best that I could do. I can't turn time back, can I? Sometimes I really just want to say: "Who has hurt who?" But in that way, I'd be calling for attention and I'd be biting myself in the butt. I tolerate instead. Whatever lies there is, it's fine to push it to me. But everyday? That's horrid. Everytime, the accusations just gets worst.

There's always mutual hurt in the relationship. I'm not always the one at fault, am I? I haven't been a perfect girlfriend and I probably never ever will, but I tried the best I could for them.

Really. Leave me alone.
Everything had already become a part of history.

You're too weak.