I have no idea why, these few days at home seems harder to get through, than before.
I have had worst, I must say. I thought I would have been numb to all these, but I must be wrong. The feeling of leaving this home and having one of my own, has never been this strong.

Amidst all these, I'm just really really blessed and grateful to have someone who loves me deeply. There is this saying that goes; "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." It does. It is just pleasant to have someone/something you can look forward to, to get through the day because there are days where you just run out of reasons and times your demons tells you to give up.

Perhaps when I'm single, I don't feel as much and words/actions at home don't seem to hurt through. When I'm attached, emotions opens up and it seems easier for me to stumble. I guess it keeps a balance.

After all, you can never have the best of both worlds.
And if you force your way out to have both, you'd always end up with possibly nothing at all.